Confusion and all that

I'm confused. How are you supposed to react to a situation when you don't even know what the damn situation is? The sensible thing to do is to wait and see how it pans out blah,blah,blah. Who cares? Since when do people react sensibly anyway? Paf. But, seeing as how there really is nothing I can do, I'll just have to, like, sit on my hands or something. That is SO difficult for me! The not doing anything bit, I mean. I'm (mostly) proactive. And then there's the stress of the event. I have to prove a point. I could just be all not bothered and say I'm doing this for me and I don't need to prove to the world how smart/talented/nice I am and all that, but it's my pride at stake here. Now I'm just rambling. I need some excitement in my life.